I took my Christmas
packages to the post office earlier this week. The line was long, of course,
and moving forward slowly. I decided to pass the time imagining ways to make
the wait more festive.
Some Christmas
music would be nice; played softly so that I would still be able to hear what
the woman behind the counter was mumbling to me about
“liquidfragileorperishable” and Priority Mail that couldn’t be guaranteed to
arrive on the West Coast within the next eight days even though it had just
cost me almost as much as the gift in the box to send it. I guess I am a little
behind this year. I also think each of the postal workers should have a dish of
peppermints at their station to hand out to customers who remain congenial
throughout the waiting process. And the worker who decked herself in jingle
bells and blinking lights should get a bonus in her paycheck. How about a tree
in the lobby to welcome us? Or maybe a big blow-up Santa with a sleigh to drop
our boxes into after we are done paying for them just to remind us who the real
delivery men are?
But what I was
really wishing for was a flash mob. Well, maybe not a mob exactly, but
a few talented a cappella vocalists who would surprise and delight us with Joy to the
World and We Wish You a Merry Christmas. The customers inching around the edges
of the post office in single file weren’t sullen, but we were all a little too
somber for such a joyous season, a little too flat, verging on gray rather than
a living green, or a red so resonant it could ring bells, or the glittering gold of jubilation.
When I finished
with my postal business I put on my coat and muffler and began to leave, but
turned impulsively at the door, smiled and exclaimed, “Merry Christmas
everybody!” A handful of the people
still waiting in line responded in kind.
I don’t know about anyone else, but I
left the post office in higher spirits than when I arrived. My To Do list
seemed shorter; my seasonal stress was shredded to ribbons; I turned up the
volume on the Christmas carols playing in my car and sang to myself as I
traveled from store to store; the snow falling softly from the sky felt like
benign approbation.
My gray had gone away.
It reminds me of a
poem I like that Thomas Hardy wrote for the Christmas of 1900:
I leant upon a
coppice gate
When frost was
spectre-grey,
And Winter’s dregs
made desolate
The weakening eye
of day.
The tangled
bine-stems scored the sky
Like strings of
broken lyres,
And all mankind
that haunted night
Had sought their
household fires.
The land’s sharp
features seemed to be
The Century’s
corpse outleant,
His crypt the
cloudy canopy,
The wind his
death-lament.
The ancient pulse
of germ and birth
Was shrunken hard
and dry,
And every spirit
upon earth
At once a voice arose
among
In a full-hearted
evensong
An aged thrush,
frail, gaunt, and small,
In blast-beruffled
plume,
Had chosen thus to
fling his soul
So little cause for
carolings
Was written on
terrestrial things
That I could think
there trembled through
Some blessed Hope,
whereof he knew
This aged thrush in
blast-beruffled blue jeans has chosen thus to fling her soul upon the growing
gloom, and the full-hearted song that trembles through me is rooted in the birth of Christ the Savior that is celebrated in hope throughout the world at the end of each year. This year no less than others.
Merry Christmas
Everybody!